It occurs to her in the tiny bit of her brain that isn't going off like alarm bells that she has no idea what time it is right now. She tries to remember whether it was light out when they were riding home from the hospital but even that is a blur. She and John had been safe in the quiet, in the warm bath, behind their locked door and now everything is loud again. Too loud and out of her control and she doesn't even know if the sun is shining.
Her breathing is uneven and she can feel herself coming apart beat by beat. She feels hot and nauseous and horribly, painfully angry. She doesn't want them talking to her and she doesn't want them talking to John and if they don't go away she isn't sure what is going to happen. What she'll do. So she stays frozen in place except for how her eyes are stinging and her body is beginning to vibrate from this painful overload of emotion all rushing in to fill all the empty spaces.
She opens her mouth to say...something. Anything. But the words get caught in her throat and she chokes on them.
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It occurs to her in the tiny bit of her brain that isn't going off like alarm bells that she has no idea what time it is right now. She tries to remember whether it was light out when they were riding home from the hospital but even that is a blur. She and John had been safe in the quiet, in the warm bath, behind their locked door and now everything is loud again. Too loud and out of her control and she doesn't even know if the sun is shining.
Her breathing is uneven and she can feel herself coming apart beat by beat. She feels hot and nauseous and horribly, painfully angry. She doesn't want them talking to her and she doesn't want them talking to John and if they don't go away she isn't sure what is going to happen. What she'll do. So she stays frozen in place except for how her eyes are stinging and her body is beginning to vibrate from this painful overload of emotion all rushing in to fill all the empty spaces.
She opens her mouth to say...something. Anything. But the words get caught in her throat and she chokes on them.